Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably, And never regret anything that made you smile.

Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we're here we should dance....

Insurance

Found out today, insurance will not pay for my surgery. Surgery that will make me live a healthier and happier life. I don't think it's a cure all for me by any stretch, but I think it would help me live long enough to realize dreams. Now plan B must come into effect. I have already started to lose some weight, 7 lbs since 10/25/07. But it's not NEAR what I want or need.

I have already started to research my next steps and see where I can go from here. Even finding a new job with better insurance has crossed my mind. It all boils down to doing whatever it takes, and I am at that point for my health.

I am SO disappointed and that old familiar feeling of just saying fuck it and giving up and eating a ding dong comes immediately to the surface. BUT I have managed to stifel it this time. I can't believe it, THAT is growth.