Insurance

Found out today, insurance will not pay for my surgery. Surgery that will make me live a healthier and happier life. I don't think it's a cure all for me by any stretch, but I think it would help me live long enough to realize dreams. Now plan B must come into effect. I have already started to lose some weight, 7 lbs since 10/25/07. But it's not NEAR what I want or need.

I have already started to research my next steps and see where I can go from here. Even finding a new job with better insurance has crossed my mind. It all boils down to doing whatever it takes, and I am at that point for my health.

I am SO disappointed and that old familiar feeling of just saying fuck it and giving up and eating a ding dong comes immediately to the surface. BUT I have managed to stifel it this time. I can't believe it, THAT is growth.