First Visit

Went on my first wls office visit Friday(7/18/08). Staff was so very nice, knew I liked them when the straight-gay guy was verbally abusing someone posing as a telecommunications salesperson on the other end of the phone. Didn't have to wait long at all. Took my blood pressure, of course it was high, weighed me, which is always a depressing experience, and stood me in front of a doorway and took a Gawd-awful polaroid of me. Trevor let me know the reason they did this is the door way doesn't shrink but I will. That spark of truth and hope made that polaroid worth it, although I think I am going to try to strike some sort of deal with him to burn it later....
It was all so surreal sitting there talking about and setting a date for something I have wanted for so long. When the scheduler was talking to me, I felt myself kinda getting caught up in the moment and in another world, so much so that she had to tell me to write something down. I have really mixed emotions about it right now, but they are all good. I am happy, sad and terrified. I feel like I am being supported so much right now, it's very comforting to know I have a place to land if I do crash from all of this. Dusty is great right now, sometimes I think she doesn't like to talk about the parts that are dangerous with me, cause she is scared too, but I know she is there for me 200%.
Set the date, 9/10/08, need to lose 25lbs by 8/27/08.......